2025/11/04: its cold
genuinely dont know wtf to type here so lets play life update lightning round ... ready? ok
- went back to school for a certificate program ... feeling very lukewarm and directionless, sometimes i wish i was cognisant enough at 18 to realize that i wouldnt kill myself in the future so i'd make a smart and insightful af 4 billion year plan with ample enough foresight to be graduated by now. i never know how to answer when people ask me what im doing or what i plan to do that doesnt sound unemployed-loser-still-in-art-school-poverty-wage-for-the-rest-of-my-life as hell
- moved ... really missed being a 5 min bike ride away from everything and not having to rely on a car anymore. then the bike got stolen
- unemployed again and am making a blood pact with myself to never work corporate retail again. id like to get back into LOCAL part-time soon enough as huge companies such as [orange] and [green] will have you feeling like a less than human bottom feeder with the amount of brainwashing involved
- got a dj controller and have been making mixes for fun and for my friend's show. sometimes i feel really lame disclosing this information to anybody (the first part not the second. #READAUGAZA)
on the more exciting end im starting to collect and make some prints + stickers + etc for an online shop ... my school hosts a small semesterly art convention and im determined to participate
heres a prototype for the charm i will be selling .. i love katamari X']
theres other plans that i cannot share right now or the haters will sabotage me. but generally everythings been getting busier recently so i hope to have more to share soon. really enjoying seeing more and more of this website realized bit by bit from where it started nearly 2 years ago to now. i never thought it would be tangible enough for me to go to the link page every now and then just to stare at the button wall like yes! this is what i would dream of! its real! anything is possible!
genuinely dont know wtf to type here so lets play life update lightning round ... ready? ok
- went back to school for a certificate program ... feeling very lukewarm and directionless, sometimes i wish i was cognisant enough at 18 to realize that i wouldnt kill myself in the future so i'd make a smart and insightful af 4 billion year plan with ample enough foresight to be graduated by now. i never know how to answer when people ask me what im doing or what i plan to do that doesnt sound unemployed-loser-still-in-art-school-poverty-wage-for-the-rest-of-my-life as hell
- moved ... really missed being a 5 min bike ride away from everything and not having to rely on a car anymore. then the bike got stolen
- unemployed again and am making a blood pact with myself to never work corporate retail again. id like to get back into LOCAL part-time soon enough as huge companies such as [orange] and [green] will have you feeling like a less than human bottom feeder with the amount of brainwashing involved
- got a dj controller and have been making mixes for fun and for my friend's show. sometimes i feel really lame disclosing this information to anybody (the first part not the second. #READAUGAZA)
on the more exciting end im starting to collect and make some prints + stickers + etc for an online shop ... my school hosts a small semesterly art convention and im determined to participate
heres a prototype for the charm i will be selling .. i love katamari X']
theres other plans that i cannot share right now or the haters will sabotage me. but generally everythings been getting busier recently so i hope to have more to share soon. really enjoying seeing more and more of this website realized bit by bit from where it started nearly 2 years ago to now. i never thought it would be tangible enough for me to go to the link page every now and then just to stare at the button wall like yes! this is what i would dream of! its real! anything is possible!
2025/07/13: pet sounds
i wish i could explain exactly how pivotal this was hearing it with my 22 y/o ears earlier this year but im no good with words. there isn't a greater feeling than having something come in and out of your life for years and years with only a surface level appreciation and suddenly it all makes sense to you, like it was waiting for the right moment to click, and every intended emotion hits you like a deep wave on the rocks, and suddenly you know why
brian wilson dying absolutely gutted me earlier this month and its pushed this album along with the rest of the beach boys discography back into my rotation and man. i didnt fully understand the sentiment of i just wasnt meant for these times when i first heard it at 13. there is something so precious when a piece of art remains so universally relateable despite its age. like why are we all lowkey connected. i always found wouldn't it be nice and god only knows to be annoying as hell out of context in like commercials and memes and shit up until i sat down and gave a proper listen and now i can't deny how beautiful the longing and wishfulness is ... the intimate tension in don't talk and the unresolved bittersweetness of caroline no, fears of change and distance ... all intertwined with a lush mingling of instruments and harmonies ... i think there are certain things you can only fully appreciate when it's presented to you at a specific time and place. which is why i can't wait to be 40 and divorced
i wish i could explain exactly how pivotal this was hearing it with my 22 y/o ears earlier this year but im no good with words. there isn't a greater feeling than having something come in and out of your life for years and years with only a surface level appreciation and suddenly it all makes sense to you, like it was waiting for the right moment to click, and every intended emotion hits you like a deep wave on the rocks, and suddenly you know why
brian wilson dying absolutely gutted me earlier this month and its pushed this album along with the rest of the beach boys discography back into my rotation and man. i didnt fully understand the sentiment of i just wasnt meant for these times when i first heard it at 13. there is something so precious when a piece of art remains so universally relateable despite its age. like why are we all lowkey connected. i always found wouldn't it be nice and god only knows to be annoying as hell out of context in like commercials and memes and shit up until i sat down and gave a proper listen and now i can't deny how beautiful the longing and wishfulness is ... the intimate tension in don't talk and the unresolved bittersweetness of caroline no, fears of change and distance ... all intertwined with a lush mingling of instruments and harmonies ... i think there are certain things you can only fully appreciate when it's presented to you at a specific time and place. which is why i can't wait to be 40 and divorced
2025/05/23: does anyone know how to induce a reoccuring dream ...
2025/04/24: life has been promising but slow so ive nothing to add here other than im getting the ball rolling on this website once more. im not much for words so this section might take a bit to fill out
havent been making complete works lately since my ipad died and im forced into drawing traditionally as my main outlet, a return to form ... which explains the radio silence on the gallery front as its reserved for finished works. not too upset about it as i was weening off my ipad already, and this was the final push i needed ... considering having a page for both digital/traditional sketches eventually ... this is a short entry bye
havent been making complete works lately since my ipad died and im forced into drawing traditionally as my main outlet, a return to form ... which explains the radio silence on the gallery front as its reserved for finished works. not too upset about it as i was weening off my ipad already, and this was the final push i needed ... considering having a page for both digital/traditional sketches eventually ... this is a short entry bye