2026/05/15:
a lot has happened in the past 7 months but that is for another time. coming to realize i dont HAVE to divulge all the information about my life if i dont feel like it. i keep a diary for a reason. it makes writing stuff down here a bit easier ... also ... also..!!! it ruins the allure of my mysterious persona i have built up over the years on the world wide web...! you just dont get it... the highlights are that i finished school, moved out, and am unemployed once more. am in a weird place art wise as evident in the lack of new gallery updates but it always passes. eventually
i actually wanted to write down some ideas i have floating around in my head for the future of this site ... ideally i would like to keep updates consistent but i dont know how realistic that would be, but i also dont want it to join the endless pile of abandoned post-covid neocities websites T_T
//..so this is a big fat reach but i really want to have an interactive game on my site like chess, or some sort of puzzle. maybe in the distant distant future ... will have to figure out the logistics of it as id like to keep this site as lightweight as possible
//..i want to make a page for all my characters to live and play ... at least a place for some written information, dusting them off from the auth-only toyhouse shelf
//..i would actually like a page for reviews and stuff but i think it would be for things i am really passionate about .. my opinions are not uniform or greatly astute or anything but i think i need a whole page to write down my thoughts on specific things that have impacted me greatly (shrines?)
ok i thought this list was going to be longer but the other stuff is just general smaller things (sfx, code unifying, etc)
outside of that ... recently i have been introspecting and want to be more dependable as a person, generally i can be either very distant or straight up neglectful when it comes to others i would consider important in my life but also want to extend this to strangers as well. i think i have to start being more honest and soon enough i can be a bit more reliable
was falling asleep to some thoughts i cant remember. my memory has been pretty bad since 2020, i want to make an effort to write things down as they come more even if i tell myself ill remember it for sure this time. i never do!
a lot has happened in the past 7 months but that is for another time. coming to realize i dont HAVE to divulge all the information about my life if i dont feel like it. i keep a diary for a reason. it makes writing stuff down here a bit easier ... also ... also..!!! it ruins the allure of my mysterious persona i have built up over the years on the world wide web...! you just dont get it... the highlights are that i finished school, moved out, and am unemployed once more. am in a weird place art wise as evident in the lack of new gallery updates but it always passes. eventually
i actually wanted to write down some ideas i have floating around in my head for the future of this site ... ideally i would like to keep updates consistent but i dont know how realistic that would be, but i also dont want it to join the endless pile of abandoned post-covid neocities websites T_T
//..so this is a big fat reach but i really want to have an interactive game on my site like chess, or some sort of puzzle. maybe in the distant distant future ... will have to figure out the logistics of it as id like to keep this site as lightweight as possible
//..i want to make a page for all my characters to live and play ... at least a place for some written information, dusting them off from the auth-only toyhouse shelf
//..i would actually like a page for reviews and stuff but i think it would be for things i am really passionate about .. my opinions are not uniform or greatly astute or anything but i think i need a whole page to write down my thoughts on specific things that have impacted me greatly (shrines?)
ok i thought this list was going to be longer but the other stuff is just general smaller things (sfx, code unifying, etc)
outside of that ... recently i have been introspecting and want to be more dependable as a person, generally i can be either very distant or straight up neglectful when it comes to others i would consider important in my life but also want to extend this to strangers as well. i think i have to start being more honest and soon enough i can be a bit more reliable
was falling asleep to some thoughts i cant remember. my memory has been pretty bad since 2020, i want to make an effort to write things down as they come more even if i tell myself ill remember it for sure this time. i never do!
2025/11/04: its cold
dont know wtf to type here so lets play life update lightning round ... ready? ok
- went back to school ...
- moved ... really missed being a 5 min bike ride away from everything and not having to rely on a car anymore. then the bike got stolen
- got a dj controller and have been making mixes for fun and for my friend's show. sometimes i feel really lame disclosing this information to anybody (the first part not the second. #READAUGAZA)
on the more exciting end im starting to collect and make some prints + stickers + etc for an eventual online shop ... my school hosts a small semesterly art convention and im determined to participate as well
heres a prototype for the charm i will be selling .. i love katamari X']
theres other plans that i cannot share right now or the haters will sabotage me. but generally everythings been getting busier recently so i hope to have more to share soon. really enjoying seeing more and more of this website realized bit by bit from where it started nearly 2 years ago to now. i never thought it would be tangible enough for me to go to the link page every now and then just to stare at the button wall like yes! this is what i dreamed of! its real! anything is possible!
dont know wtf to type here so lets play life update lightning round ... ready? ok
- went back to school ...
- moved ... really missed being a 5 min bike ride away from everything and not having to rely on a car anymore. then the bike got stolen
- got a dj controller and have been making mixes for fun and for my friend's show. sometimes i feel really lame disclosing this information to anybody (the first part not the second. #READAUGAZA)
on the more exciting end im starting to collect and make some prints + stickers + etc for an eventual online shop ... my school hosts a small semesterly art convention and im determined to participate as well
heres a prototype for the charm i will be selling .. i love katamari X']
theres other plans that i cannot share right now or the haters will sabotage me. but generally everythings been getting busier recently so i hope to have more to share soon. really enjoying seeing more and more of this website realized bit by bit from where it started nearly 2 years ago to now. i never thought it would be tangible enough for me to go to the link page every now and then just to stare at the button wall like yes! this is what i dreamed of! its real! anything is possible!
2025/07/13: pet sounds
i wish i could explain exactly how pivotal this was hearing it with my 22 y/o ears earlier this year but im no good with words. there isn't a greater feeling than having something come in and out of your life for years and years with only a surface level appreciation and suddenly it all makes sense to you, like it was waiting for the right moment to click, and every intended emotion hits you like a deep wave on the rocks, and suddenly you know why
brian wilson dying absolutely gutted me earlier this month and its pushed this album along with the rest of the beach boys discography back into my rotation and man. i didnt fully understand the sentiment of i just wasnt meant for these times when i first heard it at 13. there is something so precious when a piece of art remains so universally relateable despite its age. like why are we all lowkey connected. i always found wouldn't it be nice and god only knows to be annoying as hell out of context in like commercials and memes and shit up until i sat down and gave a proper listen and now i can't deny how beautiful the longing and wishfulness is ... the intimate tension in don't talk and the unresolved bittersweetness of caroline no, fears of change and distance ... all intertwined with a lush mingling of instruments and harmonies ... i think there are certain things you can only fully appreciate when it's presented to you at a specific time and place. which is why i can't wait to be 40 and divorced
i wish i could explain exactly how pivotal this was hearing it with my 22 y/o ears earlier this year but im no good with words. there isn't a greater feeling than having something come in and out of your life for years and years with only a surface level appreciation and suddenly it all makes sense to you, like it was waiting for the right moment to click, and every intended emotion hits you like a deep wave on the rocks, and suddenly you know why
brian wilson dying absolutely gutted me earlier this month and its pushed this album along with the rest of the beach boys discography back into my rotation and man. i didnt fully understand the sentiment of i just wasnt meant for these times when i first heard it at 13. there is something so precious when a piece of art remains so universally relateable despite its age. like why are we all lowkey connected. i always found wouldn't it be nice and god only knows to be annoying as hell out of context in like commercials and memes and shit up until i sat down and gave a proper listen and now i can't deny how beautiful the longing and wishfulness is ... the intimate tension in don't talk and the unresolved bittersweetness of caroline no, fears of change and distance ... all intertwined with a lush mingling of instruments and harmonies ... i think there are certain things you can only fully appreciate when it's presented to you at a specific time and place. which is why i can't wait to be 40 and divorced
2025/05/23: does anyone know how to induce a reoccuring dream ...
2025/04/24: life has been promising but slow so ive nothing to add here other than im getting the ball rolling on this website once more. im not much for words so this section might take a bit to fill out
havent been making complete works lately since my ipad died and im forced into drawing traditionally as my main outlet, a return to form ... which explains the radio silence on the gallery front as its reserved for finished works. not too upset about it as i was weening off my ipad already, and this was the final push i needed ... considering having a page for both digital/traditional sketches eventually ... this is a short entry bye
havent been making complete works lately since my ipad died and im forced into drawing traditionally as my main outlet, a return to form ... which explains the radio silence on the gallery front as its reserved for finished works. not too upset about it as i was weening off my ipad already, and this was the final push i needed ... considering having a page for both digital/traditional sketches eventually ... this is a short entry bye